The Girl I Used To Be

Mary Torjussen

ISBN: 9780399585036


Brought to you by OBS reviewer jerjen


The morning after real estate agent Gemma Brogan has dinner with a prospective client, she’s furious at herself for drinking so much. But there will be more to regret than a nasty hangover.

She starts receiving mementos from that night: A photo of a hallway kiss. A video of her complaining about her husband. And worse…much worse. The problem is she doesn’t remember any of it.

As the blackmailing and menace ramp up, Gemma fears for her already shaky marriage. The paranoia, the feeling that her life is spiraling out of control, will take her back to another night–years ago–that changed everything. And Gemma will realize just how far the shadows from her past can reach… (Goodreads)



Gemma owns her own real estate company, and needless to say, she is a very busy woman.  She has a lot on her plate and sometimes it is not easy for her to handle everything. Having her husband, Joe, be a stay-at-home dad, helps a lot, at least at the beginning.  He can take care of their son, Rory, and keep everything in order. But eventually she becomes resentful of Joe’s time with Rory and she feels like her son needs her husband more than her.  That is a bitter pill to swallow.

When Gemma goes to a real estate conference, she decides to stay overnight so she can rest and relax a little bit.  She should have stayed in and done just that. But instead she has dinner and drinks with a potential client. BIG MISTAKE.  When she wakes up in the morning she has a killer hangover and not much memory of the night before. Now her troubles are just beginning.

The characters are well developed and well rounded.  Gemma is a strong woman, much stronger than she realizes.  She has had a troubled past but she has worked hard to get past it.  Now she has to deal with blackmail and stalking, and she does not know how she will get past this.

The author is very talented in creating suspense and tension with just the written.  She slowly built up the tension and then just kept it moving throughout the book. She kept throwing in twists and turns and just when I thought I had it all figured out, she threw in another twist.  I thought I might get whiplash from reading this book.

The writing style flows smoothly and the book is a quick easy read.  And it was made even quicker because the reader will have to keep turning pages or swiping the e-reader to find out what is going to happen next, you will not be able to stop yourself.

I would recommend this book to anyone who enjoys a well written psychological suspense thriller.  This book is as good as any I have read in this genre. Just be sure you start reading this when you have enough time because you will not want to put it down.